Life with My type one diabetic!

Going to sleep last night I was surrounded by nothing but love. My children my spouse all in the same bed might I add. This morning when I woke I had no clue that one of the loves I was surrounded by would need me to hold her as her body shivered while her stomach rejected what it took in the night before. Eco's from my boys saying mommy I'm hungry and fluids splashing into the toilet from the bath room. I'm standing in the kitchen getting ready to cook pancakes and eggs for the family. I looked down and in one hand I had her insulin pin and in the other was pancake mix. Then I heard it again splash...

I'm currently in the process of writing several books this is one of them. I've spoke of it before it's about my daughter an her life with Type 1 Juvenile Diabetes. I began writing this book in 2012 it's named "Keep on P.U.S.H.n"

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Life with My type one diabetic!

My morning starts with her in mind she's (My Bratt) Brittiani a name that I'm very distinct with and that I've taught her to also be distinct with as well. Every day is a challenge for her I can't imagine how it must feel to wake up every morning knowing if I don't take a shot by the end of the day my life might be ended. You see my daughter has Juvenile Type1 Diabetes she was diagnosed at 7 an now she's 14 and for seven years we have struggled I have yelled, loved, cried, cuddled her on the floor when she could not move from pain of her muscles contracting from her blood sugar coming down from it being so high because she forgot to get the shot and had done it so often she didn't want to disappoint me so she didn't tell me... Only for me to wake to 2-3AM sounds of feet running through my house and I find her in the bath room head over the toilet puking her brains out because her body is now rejecting all the sugar/carbohydrates she now put in it because she forgot to get the insulin she needs to live just because she wants to live like a normal kid. Whats wrong with that? I can't Imagine what it feel like to wake up in the morning and have to get 45 units of one insulin that just takes you through the day and now you just have to get insulin for what you eat and oh don't forget to calculate your blood sugar throughout the day. I can't imagine what it feels like to just want to be a kid.

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From Giants to Addicts. Who benefits from the health industry in America?

This is the scariest thing I witnessed since Magic Johnson said he had HIV. What in the hell happened? You know what's even scarier? Magic Johnson is less than a year younger than Michael Clarke Duncan! Now how in the hell a man with a man "made" disease out lives a man who could kick the Incredible Hulk's ass...and he was a vegetarian! The answer is right in front your face. Y'all like, "Oh lawd, this nigga is at it again. Here he go...what now!" Don't be mad, just saying. This comes from Mr. Carlos Muhammad of LUV4Self. He posted this pic with great information that needs to be addressed. Now me! I just pissed y'all off with the straight facts y'all can't handle. You can be mad but I don't lie. Let's get down to business. Michael Clarke Duncan's death shocked the world and a lot of questions are going to come out from this. Now Carlos Muhammad answered those questions but I'm going to place blame. Who benefits from the US health "industry"? Answer: who runs the USDA? The same people who created it. Most of y'all are thinking is this article about racism too? Yes. Eugenics first termed and published in 1883 by Francis Galton, cousin of Charles Darwin. This was introduced to europeans worldwide and europeans in America are no different. It was such a ground breaking concept that a former "confederate" captain and representative introduced and made into "Law" the experimental research and depletion of the same thing that Michael Clarke Duncan and all of "us" have been missing since 1933...minerals. William Hatch (Democrat) was an eugenist. Read the Hatch Act of 1887. This is the government paying for experimental stations on this country's soil. What about 2002 Farm-Bill? Or the Morrill Act of 1890? This is what formed the USDA to what it is today. Name one American bred Afrikan that had anything to do with this or does? You can't! Not even ya' boy Obama. I said this before...grafted people can create and survive off grafted products. Everything you eat in this country is NOT healthy. It never has been. I'll say it again. There isn't anything "produced" in America that is healthy. YES, that is fact. I'll prove it. Tell me what is the definition of FRESH? Not the street term either! Seriously, fresh means no salt. But when you buy foods and see the big ass word FRESH written across a sign you think it's healthy. Fresh does not mean healthy. Salt is healthy. Know your body, you are made from salts. The food you eat is SANITIZED. That's right. If you pick an apple from a tree that's NEW to become ripe naturally. You picked it from the source. Remember, you picked it. If you pick an apple from a bucket or an isle in the produce section, it's CONTAMINATED. Now what is sanitized: altered to make palatable or to make clean. You don't see the word healthy nowhere in that definition. Anything with a USDA Stamp does not make it healthy, it means it's sanitized. This is done by a committee who voted on "their" standards, not yours. This is what I mean by being literate. People of melanin need natural minerals to survive. So why buy supplements that's not of you by you? But guess what? These minerals are in products you can't physically digest. How can gatorade be healthier than the water in your body? Simple, you destroy the content of water and the people of water. You know the Nile Valley Civilization is name after the "river" that populated the world? Remember Romans believed water consumption was a sin. Then the White Plague broke out. Have those ideas changed? What's being destroyed in Afrika, water wells. What's the #1 consumer market in the world, the health industry. Who's health? Your car, computer, skateboard, gym socks, condom, and beer bottle are healthier and stronger than you. Does that make any sense? It only make sense to those who benefit from it. The #1 leading cause for death in American bred Afrikans is Heart Dis-ease, mainly High Blood Pressure. High Blood Pressure is a "CONDITION". It's not hereditary. Meaning, you "train" a person to eat certain foods and live a certain lifestyle. Does any of this sound familiar? Yes it does, you just too embarrassed to admit it. Don't feel left out, my wife is a RN at one of the most so-called prestigious hospitals in the world, she makes me feel dumb. Now let's keep it 100. All the so-called advances in medicine are just that "advances". Europeans are telling you they're killing you in a different wording. Pick up a dictionary! The MisConception of Equality strikes again. Europeans build themselves up and tear you down at the same time and rate. I'm not a racist. Let's make that clear! Crystal Clear! I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Think of the problems that exist now and who's responsible. Vitamins supplements today only work for those who "created" it. Stop trusting and believing in people who CANNOT create you. That's first nature! Prime example, human milk is good for children directly from their mother for a certain amount of months. That's it. What's the definition of pasteurize in milk? Sanitary! You can't find the word healthy in that definition? But you sure do see a USDA stamp if it's sold here. So what's WHOLE milk or evaporated milk? How about the latest BS..."raw" milk? What the hell is that? Think about it. So what's the definition of healthy? It's a CONDITION! Just like a dis-ease, healthy is anything that maintains a level of nutritional or nourishing value and replenishes itself. Raw fruit and vegetables are perfect examples of healthy foods because they keep well and when they decompose (NOT rot) the remains can create itself after being planted. Those are resources. Can a store bought vitamin tablet do that? What scares me is food with an expiration date on it. If you can put a date on fruits to decompose that's a fruit I ain't eating. Expiration means ending of a "fixed" time. Fixed time?! That sounds creepy. See my point? So now you see how we went from being dwarfs to giants in 300,000 yrs but less than 300 yrs we went from giants to addicts. What does an addict do to his body? He deteriorate himself by the faith of what he eats. Why? Because he's been fooled to believe "whatever" he does is good for him. If earth deteriorates then so does it's "natural" inhabitants. That's a fact. Peace.

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CARESSED BY CANCER OR HUGGED BY BLEACH?

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” “Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent.” “When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with another.” The bread and lily one is, supposedly, a Chinese import of wisdom. Chinese or not, it prompts me to ask myself and other women a simple question: what would you spend your penny on? Assuming that you will go for bread and beauty like most of us, simple females, it all depends on your culture and…hmmm… race. To make your choices easier there are instructions on achieving beauty carefully crafted for YOU. I grew up in Europe, in the 70’s when the tanning craze was in full swing. My city was fairly close to the Black Sea, so almost every summer my mom her girlfriends and I would go to the seaside resorts to enjoy the beauty of the beach. I was only a few years old. To most kids, yoghurt is their yummy morning snack that sometimes contains fruit. To me it was the white cold stuff we put on our wounds when we got sunburns. I did not get life-threatening sunburns until I was a teenager. But as a child I watched the ladies around me sitting in the sun for hours hoping to get “that sexy tan.” None of them ever entered the water; perhaps they needed a respite from that horrendous sun. They were there on a mission: to get as dark as they could. Some of them would remove their tops, too. On those rare occasions when we couldn’t make to the resorts, these brave women would climb on the hot roof of our home and burn their skin on there, slowly and steadily. My grandfather – may he rest in peace! – used to mumble while he sat under the cherry tree and watched them climb the burning-as-hell metal ladder: “Eh, if medieval torture designers only could see this!” And then he would start name various punishments our forefathers endured at the hand of the landowners, none of them even close to that extreme sunbathing. Long live the local yoghurt makers! The tanning craze began in the 60’s with Brigitte Bardot. If you want to see the consequences of a life-long tan, look up some of her pictures after she hit forty. Until the beautiful actress started this trend, tanned skin was perceived as a sign of social inferiority, since only peasants had to work in the field while upper class would enjoy reading and tea drinking in the shade trying to preserve their “whiteness.” Back then we did not have tanning salons, so the number of people getting melanoma was significantly lower, although I must say they tried very hard. They still do, and if you don’t believe me, visit Europe in summer time. Many years later after I moved to the United States, I noticed tanning salons everywhere, even in the smallest cities. It struck me that they were so popular even in a country where race continues to be an issue. I even spotted one in a small farmers’ town where people get naturally tanned from the work in the field anyway. I did not laugh. It scared me, and confused me at the same time. Then I learned that in the United States alone indoor tanning is a nearly $5 billion per year industry. Billion, not million, not hundreds, not pennies. Wow. And apparently twenty-something million people go tanning every year. That’s a lot of people. All this while we have studies showing the direct connections between tanning and cancer, and pretty strong campaigns against it worldwide. Interesting. Let’s forget about the tanning frenzy for a second, and take a trip to Africa. Nigeria, to be more precise. A few years ago a friend from that part of the world introduced me to afro-jazz and the beautiful music of Fela Kuti. To most people his music is just cool rhythms, but if you listen to the lyrics as I do, you are in for a surprise. I sure was when I listened to “Yellow fever” and I found out that it took place in the 70’s. Right when every female I knew as a child was acquiring at least a thousand wrinkles daily if not more from sun exposure. Kuti did not spare anything and anyone, so in his song he lays about the skin bleaching practiced by Nigerian women. He perceived it as a cultural inferiority syndrome. I did my homework on skin bleaching products, too. Many skin-bleaching products can contain highly toxic agents, such as hydroquinone, mercury and corticosteroids. They are also popular in India. I remember watching a commercial where one fair-skinned man tells a darker one that the reason why he cannot get a hot date is the color of his skin. One would think, too bad there’s nothing he can do about it. Oh, but there are options. There is this “magic” lotion that will whiten his face. The commercial ends with the dark-turn-white man riding away on a bike with a hot woman. If it wasn’t for the cruelty embedded in the ad, I would advise the young man to invest in a Mercedes rather than in lotions and cancer treatments. Then I read my friend Quentin’s article in which he talks about Eurocentrism and how some try to convince black women here that their race is ugly. What are we talking about on here? Hmmm… business. We’re talking about mass programs that tell me that I should PAY to get my cancer-guaranteed tan, while at the same time in some other part of the world, a dark-skinned woman applies equally life-threatening methods only to become whiter. The greed for money is sure sprinkled with some sadism, self-hatred and depending on historical and geographical location, a twist of racism. This is a greater work of… bullshit. Sorry, I am from Eastern Europe we are simple folk; you can fool us until we get it, and then expect us to react and some. A scientist at heart, I have never perceived the differences between races more than physical adaptations to the environment. I apply all the rules I have learned while working in the animal field. After all, before being the most “intelligent” and self-destructive species, we are mammals. We should be grateful for every mutation our race has suffered because thanks to them mutations we adapt and survive. This is why I cannot believe that thousands of years of “beneficial mutations” can or should be reversed. Actually, I think any attempt not only is futile but it can be very detrimental. Going back to the ancient wisdoms…When I have only two pennies left in the world, I will buy a loaf of bread with one, and a book about self-hatred and brainwash with another. Meows! © by Oana 2012 For more information on tanning, skin bleaching and other “medieval” beautifying techniques see below: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/04/11/skin-bleaching-jamaica_n_847373.html http://www.pbs.org/newshour/rundown/2012/08/tanning-fairwarning.html http://www.fitnessmagazine.com/beauty/sun-care/skin-cancer-prevention/indoor-tanning-the-skin-cancer-risk-you-dont-know-about/?page=6 To read Fela Kuti’s lyrics from Yellow Fever click here http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858797987/ To read Quentin’s article click here http://www.authorsinfo.com/index.php?option=com_easyblog&view=entry&id=289&Itemid=635

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On Fitness and Donuts


Everything started with that sexy dress I saw on display one lazy afternoon while I was window shopping downtown. I wanted that dress, but she did not want me. She stretched desperately on my body, but love was not there and we could not become one.

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No Cancer Diaries....So I Speak Up To Save Lives!

People are often surprised at my candidness when it comes to speaking up about my battle with cancer. In August of 2010 I was diagnosed with a rare form. You know that thyroid gland that exists in your neck? It does wonders for your energy levels and helps regulate your metabolism. Well I had malignant thyroid tissue in one of my ovaries which is almost unheard of. So much so that my case was referred to Yale University (PA) and involved Kaiser Permanente, Washington Hospital Center, and Holy Cross Hospital (DC Area). It required that I also have my thyroid removed in March of 2011 just after my birthday. I then had radiation treatment shortly thereafter in May of 2011. 

The fact of the matter is, cancer is plaguing the nation, It is becoming as common as the cold it seems. I am not ashamed to tell people about my experience because in my mind it may help save someone's life. As I take this journey, it is my hope that someone will hear my story and it will drive them to keeping their regular doctor visits. Furthermore if one feels in their heart that something is not right, it is important to pursue it and get as many opinions as possible until the source of the ailment is found. I know this from experience as mines went under the radar until after the decision was to made to have the first surgery. It was not until the biopsy was performed that what they thought was a large cyst was confirmed to be cancer. Wow! 

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